恕我疏离

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一直以来，都是妈妈看着我背离的身影，甩甩头发走向地球这边那边。终于有一日看见妈妈微笑着背离，才知道那美丽的身影也早已不再矫健如前。
你挥挥手挑起嘴角，给我安心的笑颜。
我却在背离月台的那一刻，将眼泪逆流成海。

Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed-interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suit on hire purchase in a range of fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, sleeping your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, kids you?ve spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life…
But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life: I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons.

一直是因为这段台词喜欢猜火车。
爱好与专业，或者违心与执着，都罢了。不过是在现实里郁郁而行的渺小存在，任谁逃不过选择二字。终归我不可能做一份内裤外穿拯救地球的营生更没有一张让亿万富翁看一眼就魂飞魄散的脸。
做人难。做21世纪好好学习天天向上充满光明前程未来大好希望的根红苗正五好青年更难。

娘亲大人说，身为女儿无非图个安稳。可就是这安稳二字，照旧还是要选择一个生存的城市，选择一个生存的居所，选择一个生存的营生，之后大概还要选择一个生存的依靠，然后选择无数为了安稳生存不得不面对的选择。

我从一个陌生的国度回到一个陌生的城市争取做好陌生的自己。
生活是摆不渡的岸。

我都明白，我知道即使从地球那边奔了回来，也仍旧连守在爹娘身边这小小的愿也不圆满。
我只是没想到，那么多的心理准备之后，这脆弱依旧来的排山倒海。